about 10 months ago i was having a day where i felt on top of everything. and the only reason i was able to find that, to reference to, so easily was because it stuck out and because today i've felt approximately the opposite.
i don't get excited, i find i can't be interesting for more than 60 consecutive seconds, if that. i don't even know if i come off as human to other people. my friends are clearly very patient people but i don't want to hang out with them and make things boring.
i get that it's a down time and it will pass just as that other time did, so i'm not worried about that. but i've been comfortable with myself for a while now and if this is who i'm comfortable with, well..