so i heard this song, well, actually i saw part of the video, but as i didn't have the television muted i could also hear the song, and the song was informing me that a certain artist was, to paraphrase, "back in the game." as far as i could tell, from the thirty seconds or so that i allowed this all to sink in, the entire song was letting everyone know that not only was she back, but also, that she was back. repetition = emphasis i think, otherwise she may have come back without bringing any lyrics. tragic. this kind of song disturbs me a bit, in the sense that i don't get it. [which may mean 'disturb' is not the right word, and if not, substitute something else you deem appropriate. it's like mad libs�, but sucky-like.] i mean, i don't need to hear that you are back, especially not for three+ minutes, because i can see/hear just fine. also, as your only song, since coming back, is one saying that your back, the point still seems rather debatable, at least to me. perhaps you should sing, instead, about where you've been, what you've been up to, and why is it you're returning now. sort of an introduction, you know, hi, i'm mary, and i've been in a heroin-induced coma for the past year. [just an example.] of course you can "make it hype" [are the kids still saying this?] by having shiny things [cars, ice [and you know full well i don't mean cubes [though having ice cube is always a good touch, but you did already have dre, so..]], chromed everything, and, of course, lots of female skin, preferably with some amount of water on it to make it shiny [which i understand even less than the average, i.e. male, rap [or are you hip-hop?] video, but whatever]]. just some thoughts.conversely, i think outkast does well.
[with no connection to videos or music,] why is it so easy to pretend things don't exist? [or is it just me?] and i don't mean in a philosophical sense that things we see only exist in our heads or anything like that, as i'd be hard-pressed to discuss anything so deep and/or metaphysical, as i'm still warm from the volcano [geological analogy anyone?]. anyway. i mean that i find it easy to want to say things and instead just not say them, for example. and it seems only logical to me that it would be easier to say what you wanted to and not repress anything, releasing pressure instead of trying to hold it in. except that might well be it, that i don't feel this pressure when i don't say something, and i don't feel as though i'm repressing myself. so either what i feel is correct and it is easier to just keep quiet sometimes, or i'm warped for some reason. i don't know.
i just can't justify making others, and/or myself, uncomfortable to simply act on a thought or wish. and while the potential outcomes could, potentially of course, far outweigh any moments of awkwardness produced, the odds of which direction they would outweigh it are never in my favor. [except in dreams, and even then snoop rolls up and ends that.] and you never bet against the house.
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"you kick my foot under the table,
i kick you back;
i can't say i'm able to stand for you
or fall for you
ever again." -l.l.
