it is really hard to pay attention to the discussion of philosophy that the professor and most of the class is having, when comments like this are made. and he's one of those guys that never writes anything down, and always appears smug, and makes comments that, once of every five or more, make sense, and the professor, hopefully just being nice, comments on how deep that question was. meanwhile he's collapsing the theory of evolution into a few millennia, and no one notices.

it may just be a reflection on me.

i was at a friend's house and his sister commented on how, in contrast to someone else who was deemed to speak too much, i do not speak enough. the problem i have, [or one of them, heh, anyway,] as i see it, is that i almost always know what i'm going to say, if only for a moment before i say it. so i, knowing already whatever it is i'm about to blather on about, get bored of myself, and either stop myself or don't start. [it is a self-imposed thought, not one dropped upon me, nor do i impose such standards on others [well i mean if they are boring they just are, not because of my hang-up].] i realize this is a potentially very stupid line of thought, for if everyone thought like this, and spoke very little, communication and advancement and whatnot would be extremely hard. also, i guess, in some sense, it is robbing the immediate area [and, in a similar manner, the world,] of my perspective and what i think, but i don't think that it would make a difference were it known or not. [easy to say since it can't be checked. meaning, if it were out there, it would be out and you couldn't measure the difference, and since it's not, it can't be measured either.] fatal thinking perhaps.

-