i don't feel old. at all. i realize that this delusion is likely brought about by the gradual nature of time and aging, and will likely result in a sudden realization at some point in the relatively not-so-distant future. regardless, i don't.
but i do see or sense time slipping by, at least every now and then, and i don't like the idea that it is slipping away and everything that implies. i am not, however, that motivated [at all, really] to do that much about it at the moment. which, again, may simply become one of those moments of clarity that occurs too late.
what i cannot tell is if i am simply procrastinating decisions and activities or if i am watching the events leading to a metaphorical crash and not doing anything to intervene while i have the chance.