sometimes, like just now, i will be thinking of something to write or thinking of something and decide to write it down. except it will feel so rote of me to say that i do a quick search to make sure i haven't said the same thing three or four times before as i've surely said it at least once, verbatim to what is in my head. and when i cannot find it i assume the search is broken, but come across something else i like better. so first, what i came to say..
whenever i start to get the feeling that i deserve some thing or situation, i know that i'm headed down the wrong path. and that whatever it is that i started to have [in my head], is not for me.
