when i actually cook a meal, which isn't all the time as there are plenty of things to eat or make that aren't that involved, i notice. i feel like i should be cooking for someone or with someone. i miss people. sometimes a lot.
it used to be that i'd see my friends on the weekends and we'd have dinner or snacks and play a few games or just chat and that would fulfill my social quota and i'd go home, happy to have my time. and maybe it's because i've been sick or maybe i'm just finally hearing my subconscious. or maybe it's just a phase. but i want to curl up, with someone, and just be. i don't know that i can explain it. so at least for now i won't try.
i'm not even sure if this is right