it is more than annoying to me when i know what is going to happen but i have to initiate the event for it to occur. it has to happen at some point. which means that i have to start something that i know will end poorly, so that it can end poorly, because it has to happen. it would almost be nice if it could just occur without me. almost.
and i've been sleeping horribly lately.
it's losing all of its fun