some weekends will go by and i won't have said a word to anyone. maybe to a cashier; but that's not what i mean. over the past few days i was in contact with a lot of people in various ways, some of which i hadn't talked to in a long time. and i do not know how much emptier i could have felt.
and that's on me. it's not their fault that i felt how i did, but it is much easier to abdicate that to them than to diagnose and remedy whatever it is.
don't really wanna think about it at all