some time ago a friend and i [quasi-]tried being more than friends. short story short, it didn't work for who knows why, but we're back to just friends because we're adults.

however, there are times when we are having lunch or just talking when i really want to run my fingers through her hair, kiss her. and, honestly, it happens at times with other people; some of which i do not know.

i don't do it because it's not my place and i'm not lenny from "of mice and men," and i'm not trying to get maced, tazed, or arrested. most of all the first reason, i either don't know them or we don't have that sort of arrangement or both. even so there are times where i have to maintain the conscious thought to not reach out.

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