i told him that i did stupid things and that these were the consequences.
it probably would have been healthier if he had pressed further but the combination of other people feeling awkward and i think he felt bad for me ended the q&a period fairly quickly.
a boyfriend of a friend of a friend told us about being let off of multiple DUIs and flipping his car after drinking. he was drinking tonight, and then drove home.
i decided that i should stop looking for someone. i had a loving relationship and ruined it. i don't have the right to harm other people. i should be quieter, listen more, be more considerate, and most of all alone.
i hate that these are effectively new year's resolutions but you don't always get to choose when your drunk friends provide moments of clarity.
where your hands were missing