you see, i am nearly out of cologne. and the problem is that i have no one to go with me. i do not even want a different scent necessarily. the one i have is rather great. but just the fact that i have no one to turn to for a vital opinion, it is just another thing.
and they add up to way more than the big stuff. no one checks up on me anymore. i have no one to lookout for.
i fear atrophying to the point of uselessness. it is crushing, at times.
fuck this time and place