no one excites me. let me start again.. if excitement is anxiousness and interest and hope and longing and feeling drawn toward someone or the idea of someone, then, no one excites me. and while i would like to think that there is nothing to that, i think there might be.
overall, i think i could be okay by myself and i think my being okay isn't a bad thing. keeps me from jumping into anything out of desperation. but it also sounds boring and i don't know that i want to be okay with it. but how to be excited if it isn't naturally occurring? stupid, all of it, but true.
and i want you to miss me