i think that maybe [perhaps] one of the reasons i find myself attached and eventually disheartened as often as i do is because i'm more open than people think. i'm just selective.
but also because i think that i find it difficult to relearn things. for example, i still drag my clutch a bit coming out of first gear. it's hard to unlearn. if you're not a friend, it will be difficult for me to think of you as one. if you are it is difficult to think of you as more than that and varying degree of blehness to think of you as less.
i guess what i'm trying to say, aside from the fact that i'm wordy, is that i'm difficult. but you already knew.