i'm not tortured by the stupidity of past actions. but from time to time they will pop into my head and that cringe or the wave of embarrassment/astonishment at my own idiocy will rehappen. i don't know if that means that i never processed it fully and accepted it or if my subconscious is telling me what not to do (again). or maybe it doesn't mean anything and that's just how my head is wired.
some of my regrets are shorter lived. and then some aren't. my current glumness stretches back far enough to be the cause of a current regret. you win. you were right.
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