so then i started thinking of people i've known and've spent time with, and i tried to compare our musical tastes just as a point of reference, and of course i came up with the same conclusion. and that got me wondering what it would be like to meet someone who likes the same music, [or anything else really, or everything..] and honestly i don't want to go spend time with a copy of myself, i think i'm rather annoying, i just mean the counterpart to me with very similar interests, tastes, opinions. and again i think the best i could hope for with such a person would be friendship, i am just curious to spend time with such a person because i think it seems as though it would be an excellent way to learn about yourself, albeit a horrendously tough job to find such a person. it may very well be easier to just ask people what they think of you, but that's an obvious double-edge. especially considering i'm not sure i'd really want to hear lots of bad things at the moment. i guess my point is i think it would be cool to go to a gathering at a friends house and have everything somehow not only be enjoyed by the host/ess and guests but be enjoyable to me as well. selfish, i know, i'm not saying i ever expect this or get pissed when it doesn't happen, it's not a big deal, i realize this is life. however, i just think my proposal would be very interesting were it to occur. [of course, my selfishness doesn't end there, and with my superb luck/karma, the hostess [i would never use this formal word for my friends who have parties at their house, but i've no other way to get my point across, at least not on such little sleep,] -and it would have to be a girl and not a guy [i haven't a really good idea what exactly i mean by the next few words, only something vaguely straightforward, and without any hidden ideas of self-superiority] just because i know no guys who like all the things i like- she would have to be involved quite heavily with someone, much to my chagrin. that, or also having my stupid hang-ups] [curs�d imaginary female counterpart with very similar tastes..]

i noticed someone's eyes the other night [hmm, not in that way, more in an anatomical sense] and as the human body/nature never cease to amaze me [as i'm a nerd] i couldn't help but wonder why i never hear people talking about being equally amazed, because surely there are millions who are. like the fact that these opaque white orbs move in compliment with each other via minute muscle contractions and the iris is somehow this beautiful multicolored [or at least able to be many different colors] structure leading to what is, by visual inspection at least, a black hole leading into the mind of someone. and how the mind and eyes give us so much information and fool us into thinking they are giving us even more than that so we can't complain. to see the beautiful cheek we are brushing the back of a finger across or the texture of the rough homemade paper or the ultrasmooth surface of highly polished metal. i find nothing not fascinating about any of that. to me it seems if one finds nothing amazing, discounting extreme circumstances, one simply isn't of the mindset to ever be so.

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